Depressed

and irrationally so.

My last two exams, I feel, were okay. The problem is that to make up for my previously poor results, I need to get a distinction of these next two exams, and I am not confident of that. But at least there is a fair chance of a credit for them.

But I walked out of my last exam on Saturday afternoon and felt a huge wave of insanity hit me. It has lasted until today, where I feel a bit better. But the past few days have been miserable. The thoughts that came to my head were:

1. My first year grades are poor enough that there is a high chance I will be staying another semester. Additionally, I have been forced to attend summer school and forgo the chance at an internship or summer job.
2. I have been trying to look for a girlfriend for about three-quarters of the year with a 0% success rate. I feel like I am doing something completely wrong, or that something is just lacking and I don't know what it is.
3. I have done very little in extra activities outside school: only participating in the residence talent show, and MUN later this week.
4. In total, I feel like I have achieved none of my objectives for this year, which were #1 and #2.

Honestly, in a normal situation I would not be feeling so bad, and take things one at a time. But combined with the stress of exams, I've just been feeling kind of overwhelmed.

I have to stop the rest tomorrow and head out to run some last errands, and get some packing done to make the final move back to Singapore. In fact, I should probably start tonight. But I just wanted to get this out there. Hopefully this helps me clear my head and move forward.